Today's Saturday. But so was exactly a week ago. However, more time seemed to have passed. Last week, was the NTU Ball, and I remember having lunch with Lea in the morning and then getting our hair done with Crissy and Christina later that afternoon. But that really all seemed so long ago. (The dance was fun, went to chili's afterwards. followed by more dancing at room 18). And in the seven days that had passed, a lot has happened. Yesterday, Lea got on a plane and went home. Watching her leave made me want to leave. But more, watching her leave made me realize that a year really is coming to the end. ICLP classes were done last week, and we had our end of semester dinner. Talking to Professor Tseng made me realize that time wont stop for us. The next group of EAP kids are ready to come in August. our time is up.

Before Lea left, me, Crissy and Lea wanted to hit some of the bigger tourist attractions in Taipei. So we went to Taipei 101, and CKS and acted like Japanese tourists with our cameras. But I dont care, pictures are the only thing that makes time stay still; and time is going too fast for my comfort anyways.

I really do spend a lot of time lately thinking about time. Mostly about how much time has passed. I'm going home in July, and I can't believe I've already lived in Taipei for 9 months. It really just past by. I get facebook messages from friends that i met freshmen or sophomore year of college, and I realized how much time has passed. If i teach study group this fall, I will be 4-5 years older than my students. My brother is turning 21 this year. O god, I'm not 17 anymore. wait, i already finished junior high? did high school even happened??? i want to play on the swings again. No wonder i was so happy when the waitress carded me the other day. o yeah, i also bought pop-rocks today. remember those? 

It's been raining here, actually more like POURING. but when you're here, you really cannot wait for the rain to stop to go out, because you'll never go out then. thank goodness for cabs! but today, the rain decided to stop and me and Yuezi went to a sake bar for dinner. Haha, i think i was trying to make her feel better for not letting her bring a chameleon into our room. I woke up today with her asking if she can buy a lizard for a pet! she even wrote out a price list and everything. it didnt matter that we only had a month left, she just wanted to have it. aww, that's my roommate. she's so hilarious, and i will really miss her when i go home.

home. i do miss it. i miss my family, i miss my friends, but i am sad that once i leave this place, it'll be a long time before i'm back. that's why i'm in no hurry to go home. i think besides time, i'm also obsessed with the people that i meet. as we get older, our world grows bigger, the more people we meet, the more people we connect with. so it breaks my heart really how chance, fate, or whatever it is that brings people to the same place for a period of time  but only to go seperate ways. we say we'll keep in touch, but it will never be the same. although change isnt necessary bad, it doesnt stop the missing and longing. i guess it is one of my weaknesses. i take things too personally and get really attached to people that i think are worth it. but i will let go when i have to. it just breaks my heart that i have to do it. it's probably like this with everyone?

conclusion - none. i probably just need to sleep more.

tomorrow will start the last week of class at iclp. no more climbing those 4 flights of stairs every morning. and when we take the exist exam this friday, it will be over. my one year here will be essentially be done. so weird. i'll still have NTU classes, but those are pretty much done too. i just need to turn in my research reports. get this, for my bio class, 100 percent of my grade will be based on a 3-4 page paper. awesome.

so i have two months left. if i look back on my personal journal, or this xanga, i probably have reiterate the same thought. "so i have X-number of months left" but it's true. i do feel like my time year is ending soon. i have a date set for home --- july 22. so it feels final.

anyways, another random thought. i was at eslite yesterday, and i saw that the author of He's Just Not into You has written another book --- It's Called a Breakup cuz it's Broken. hahaa i wonder why he gets to make a career out of telling women what to do or feel. i want to write a book too now. can you image me give advice to other women??? if i ask amanda, she would tell me, "jenny, you're the bluebird of happiness," and i would ask, "amanda, bluebirds arent really happy," amanda would say, "exactly," she then would again remind me to never work at a suicide hotline. i guess i'm not the most sympathetic person she knows. weird right? ok, maybe not.

it's rainy in taipei AGAIN. but because of it, the weather has cooled down a lot, and it feels nice. i rather have it like this, i'm allergic to sunshine.